WHAT MAKES SYBELLE AN ASPIE
Well, what is it that makes me an Aspie (person
with Aspergers)?
I have a hell of a time if somebody does things
different than I do, especially when it is at my home. I used to
think this is because I think things through and do them on a logical
way, but now I think it is more likely because of Aspergers. I have
a hard time watching someones eyes. I got used to it, but when I'm
tired it gets harder to do (some people are easy and some are very
hard work to watch their eyes). I used to believe every word exactly
as it was said when I was younger.
white lies and other people's motives
When I found out that people almost always do
kind of comforting lies, I began to be very critical on everything
someone says and try to find out what his or her intentions might
be. I need to think about peoples motives instead of just feeling
them, but then I got quite fast in that so nowadays almost nobody
notices.
I had to learn to smile, frown and make the face
that would meet my feelings when I was a teenager. I found out at
that time that my face did not look as lifely as anyone elses face
(especially of cause actresses faces) seemed to look like and so
I sat down in front of a mirror and tried out what looks I liked
and what not.
interests and personal space
I try to know everything about a subject I'm interested
in. Over the years this have been: cats, dogs, wool/spinning/weaving,
pottery, doing water color paintings, doing portraits (very hard
thing to watch a face for such a long time), gardening/plants, biology
(especially genetics), kids (when I started to have some), healthy
food and a lot more I forgot over the years. Whatever I'm interested
in, starts to become an obsession after a short while.
I got so much things now, I had to drop a lot
of them because I don't have enough time. I feel uncomfortable in
any crowd (that is more than at least 6 people). And I have the
biggest personal space of all people I know, that means when talking
to someone else it's me who walks backwards to keep distance.
Put me in a single-prison
There are times that I think it would be okay
if one put me in single-prison, giving me enough to eat, all the
books I want and a computer with internet. But then I remember I
would miss my garden-plant-obsession thing, so this is no option.
I put a lot of time and work into being able to act normal only
to be accepted when I was a child and teenager, but never was.
I am very sensible to smell and it makes me sick
going to a perfumery or smelling someones aftershave/perfume too
intense (well, I can smell it even when nobody else does, so it's
me and not only people who put on too much of that stuff), on the
other hand I love smelling flowers and natural odours (no, not the
ones sweating men produce) like gras and the woods after rain and
so on. I'm also sensible to certain sounds.
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